quarter life crisis

Okay, so, if I'm being honest here, I'm not 25, so this isn't really a quarter life crisis. But I am no where near mid-life, so I'm call this a maybe near 30ish crisis. Plus or minus, I will not say. (YES, me es loco when I don't get any sleep.......)

ANYWAY...I'm sitting here, at 12:30am.. STILL writing a paper I might add and feeling a little panicky. Why? Well, one, I have to write 4 papers a week and upload them by Sunday evening and I only have one paper done for this week (EEEEEK)...and two.. well.. I'm just feeling slightly depressed that I'm not already grown up and doing grown up things. You know what I mean?

Probably not, because this post is completely random and I can't get my thoughts straight...

What I'm trying to say is that, by now, at this point in my life I should have a successful career in X (insert all 20 of the things I wanted to grow up to be....), married, traveling the world, wearing size 0, eating whatever the fuck I want (fuck you sugar!), planning babies... SIGH SIGH SIGH...

But here I am. Writing paper 2 of 4 the DAY they are due...and freaking out.

I know... hash tag this #firstworldproblems. It's my blog, I'll vent if I want to.

...don't worry Dillon, I will not be getting a Latina mistress who is waaay too young for me, use my daughter's credit cards to spend money on her, or neglect my wife and family at home. Oopsie-poo.. daddy R, if you are reading this, you know what I'm talking about.

I digress...

I don't know..I just want to find some meaning to life, love, and whatever. I want to finish writing my book...I want to paint...I wanna be a millionaire..so freakin' bad...

Alright, I'm getting even more loopy as this post goes on. I will spare you.

Good night to whoever reads this.

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Hello, my name is...

I've been doodling a lot at work because we always have so much downtime. We use to be able to read a book, study (some of us are in MA & nursing school), or even play games on our tablets. But new policy says we have to just sit there and stare at the walls if we are not helping a patient. So now I doodle.. otherwise I'd go crazy.

Today's drawing turned into a little comic.




SMH........Monday people are stupid. Or they just have too much wax in their ears.

Drawing has made me wish I had finished college the first time around..I majored in digital media and art. Sigh...I can only hope that the "me" in the other universe took that path.

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I want to go to Coachella

*whiny voice* I want to go to Coachella..at least one time in my lifetime! The last music festival I went to was Voodoo Fest is New Orleans; tons of fun, minus getting travel sickness. And...uhh flashing my boobies to everyone and getting stalked by the creepiest dude all night.....yeeeaah..fun times.

Of course I will be watching Coachella live on YouTube, but I want the total experience..dehydration, sunburns, sore throat from screaming, exhaustion from dancing...what..? That doesn't sound like a fun time to you? :P




SIGH. Maybe next year....

Testing testing...BlogPress

I'm just testing this app that iTunes genius suggested.

I know it's been for-freaking-ever since I've posted anything, but I've been busy; 2 jobs and school....what was I thinking taking another job???! ..oh right, I'm a broke biotch... :S

And plus all the crazy stuff going on with my disfunctional family has been keeping me emotionally crazy lately...




I've been angry doodling a lot lately and trying to learn mindfulness based meditation. I had my first session yesterday and it was wonderful. I feel a little less anxiety and stress, but it's a work in progress.

Wow did I digress or what? I will have to do a proper review on BlogPress after I play around with it a bit. So far I like it. :)

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