I want to go to Coachella

*whiny voice* I want to go to Coachella..at least one time in my lifetime! The last music festival I went to was Voodoo Fest is New Orleans; tons of fun, minus getting travel sickness. And...uhh flashing my boobies to everyone and getting stalked by the creepiest dude all night.....yeeeaah..fun times.

Of course I will be watching Coachella live on YouTube, but I want the total experience..dehydration, sunburns, sore throat from screaming, exhaustion from dancing...what..? That doesn't sound like a fun time to you? :P




SIGH. Maybe next year....

Testing testing...BlogPress

I'm just testing this app that iTunes genius suggested.

I know it's been for-freaking-ever since I've posted anything, but I've been busy; 2 jobs and school....what was I thinking taking another job???! ..oh right, I'm a broke biotch... :S

And plus all the crazy stuff going on with my disfunctional family has been keeping me emotionally crazy lately...




I've been angry doodling a lot lately and trying to learn mindfulness based meditation. I had my first session yesterday and it was wonderful. I feel a little less anxiety and stress, but it's a work in progress.

Wow did I digress or what? I will have to do a proper review on BlogPress after I play around with it a bit. So far I like it. :)

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone ^^

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Geek stuff: StarCraft 2 - Vengeance..or, Kerrigan is a badass!

This post is for Dillon, because I have never gotten into playing StarCraft. I love playing Warcraft and Diablo III.. But Dillon is a huge fan of StarCraft. Dillon believes that my half Korean blood would give me the upper advantage if I were to play the game. Apparently StarCraft is like a sport in Korea and most of the top players are Korean. I guess only being half doesn't cut it, because I don't understand what the hell is going on most of the time!! ...of course, if Warcraft was a sport that would be another story.....



Seriously...when are they going to make this into a movie??

Any way, StarCraft 2 pt.2: Heart of the Swarm will be released on March 12, 2013. Check out more of the Heart of the Swarm launch events over at Blizzard.

The verdict is in: I have diabetes

I've been fighting "pre" diabetes for about 4 years now. My health problems started during my last relationship; I was in a horrible relationship that lasted for almost 10 years and the stress of it all was making me gravely ill and depressed. And of course what do most people turn to when they are feeling down? They eat BAD food. Glorious nom nom nom..deliciously, bad for you food.

Every year it seemed my pant size would go up.. and every year I would just tell myself everything was okay. Of course everything was not okay; my then fiance was cheating on me with practically everyone, I was working over 70 hours a week, and my health was rapidly deteriorating.

The turning point was when I was admitted to the hospital for severe exhaustion and three busted vessels in my nasal cavity. I'll spare you the gory details, but let's just say my bathroom looked like a murder scene and the cops wanted to take my then fiancé in for questioning. Every orifice in my face would not stop bleeding (my eyes even bleed a little) and I was choking on my own blood it felt like I was drowning. After several tests, surgery, and two weeks of gauze stuck up my nostrils, my doctors concluded that I was on a fast track to dying early. If I didn't get rid of the stress in my life and start living a healthier lifestyle I would definitely die young. That was an extreme wake up call for me; I got rid the horrible husband (CRAZY, we got married anyway during all that), the stressful job (unfortunately...or fortunately, I was laid off..), and lost almost 4 dress sizes with healthier eating and discovering that I love running. Things were started to looking up!

Of course after moving to the mid-west to be with the love of my life (I wasn't looking.. and there he was! But that's story for another time..) did a little number on me. I love Dillon with all my heart (see my Valentine post here), but that didn't stop me from falling into a deep depression after I moved to the mid-west. I missed family (miss, I still miss them *sniffle*), friends, the beach, home cooked Korean food... seeing Asian people in general; for me, it is hard being practically the only Asian in my area... I don't feel like I fit in. But I digress, I was so depressed that I swear I didn't leave Dillon's house, or the bedroom for that matter for almost a month. And since my immune system was down I had even contracted H1N1 (and back to the hospital I went. SIGH.).

That was three years ago. And while things are better (less depression equals awesome drug therapy!) I have lost the motivation I had to be healthy. My stress level has soared due to working full time, going to school full time, a mortgage, car payments, 2.5 animals (Zed is half cat, half devil) and other adult responsibilities. I am back up 4 dress sizes and in denial that everything is okay. And I've turned back to food, in particular sugar and everything that is bad for me. I'm lazier than ever, my eyes are going bad, and I just don't feel right.

Where am I going with this whole spilling-my-guts post? Well, first off, I need to stop being in denial and just admit there's a problem. And it's hard to stay in denial when you have a voice mail message from your doctor saying, "You have diabetes, CALL ME." Next, I need to stop using food as my cure-all; it is obviously not a cure-all, but you know what I mean. And lastly, and more importantly, I want to live for a long time. I have so many things I want to do, especially with Dillon. So cutting my life short because I was too lazy to eat better or exercise is not in my plans for the future. 

This is it people; I'm going to beat this and I'm going to get this body into shape.

(((I know I sound all gung-ho, but I'm truly pissing my pants right now... so any suggestions are greatly appreciated!)))

Valentine's day..or, just another day

The other day there was some discussion if there was going to be a regular raid on Thursdays. My guild (yes, I'm a nerd, I play Warcraft) usually raids on Tuesdays and Thursday nights. Since Valentine's day was on a Thursday, some of the non-attached members wanted to know if there was going to be raid or not. They were not sure if the guildies that have girlfriends or wives (I'm pretty much the only girl, except for a DK/rogue in our guild) were going to be doing something special on v-day.

Special? I said, "It's just another day to me..."

Of course I should have known a flurry of messages about how they would shower me with love and gifts if I were their girlfriend would follow that statement. So I will elaborate:

Everyday is Valentine's day for me. I don't have to wake up to an annoying, loud alarm clock; I wake up to warm hands giving me a gentle back rub. I am so lucky that I never have to do the dishes, take out the trash, feed the animals, clean Zed's litter box, or clean up the doggie landmines in the back yard. If I'm thirsty or hungry in the middle of night (we are weekend night owls), Dillon will run out and get me something without complaining. He always runs errands or goes grocery shopping with me, and never allows me to carry any of the bags. When I'm cooking or do a marathon baking/cooking day, he is my number one sous-chef (penelope & buddy being number 2 & 3); gathering ingredients, chopping, stirring, and most importantly, opening jars my little weak hands can't open. And he will sit in the kitchen to keep me company.. just because he likes to be with me. Dillon tells me he loves me as soon as he wakes up, when he leaves for work, in text messages, after brief phone calls, at random, and before he goes to bed. It is rare to not hear Dillon say "I love you" at least 10x a day. He gives me unexpected gifts; maybe something Hello Kitty themed, down load a movie I want to watch, an album I want to listen to, a game I want to play, or even more exciting to me..a new digital pet or mount on Warcraft. :P

He is the best boyfriend I have ever had and I adore him and thank him for making everyday special. ^^

I hope you all have a wonderful Valentine's day and that you find your own special guy/girl that's just like my Dillon so that your everyday can be like Valentine's day.

Dear Sugar...

....aka sweet stuff, muffins, Cinnabon, cupcakes, ice cream and anything with high fruitose...

I know I can have you, but I don't want you. So please stop tempting me with your empty promises to make me happy or to fill some void in my life. I don't want to have to give myself insulin shots, have a foot cut off, or spend thousands of dollars on healthcare. I don't want to die early and leave my Penelope motherless. Or think about Dillon growing old without me. I want to have babies, not diabetes. 

Please and thank you,
Jules

Work, school, & Warcraft: no sleep for you!!

YAY! I finally have a new full time job! Thank God, because I didn't know how long I could last working part time at BB. Retail is definitely not for me. Good experience though, even if there were a lot of creepy customers.

And, school started up again last week. This will be a little bit of a challenge for me, I love my sleep!! I left my last full time job so that I could study, but luckily my new job tends to have a lot of downtime so I can do some homework while I'm at work. The very first day I had so much downtime that all I did was watch YT videos. That's not to say that this is an easy job. The only problem is that there's so much information that I have to remember! So many phone numbers, names, back lines, nurse lines... doc lines.. I don't know how the gal that that's training me keeps it together!

I'm going to need a lots and LOTS of coffee and energy drinks. I will have to catch up on sleeping on the weekends...except the new Mists of Pandaria was released. :X its the new Warcraft expansion. And I just have to say, I love you Blizzard. You would be my 3rd husband (after Dillon and Alexander Skarsgård) and we would have many, many Pandaren babies. I started playing wow right after the Burning Crusades expansion, and I think that MOP is the best expansion that has been released. I don't want to do a full review, because I haven't leveled a panda yet, but with the 85-90 quest leveling it has been fantastic. Lots of lore in the quest lines, which only makes me want to read the books even more. Sorry, total geek moment.

So it's looking like I'm never going to get any sleep until my December break, OR unless I win the lottery. Eh, a girl can dream can't she?